Don’t Forget to Pause on Life.

I am currently hitting the pause button on my life, if you will. What am I talking about you ask? Well, I have been so busy the past eight years of my life, constantly going somewhere or doing something, constantly struggling with something or making vital decisions. I’ve put in an estimated 116,800 hours of work at McDonald’s to support myself and help my boyfriend as best as possible to pay bills and get though school. I’ve been busy having anxiety attacks but also laughing attacks, I’ve been busy staying up late studying and writing papers. I’ve been busy trying to maintain a relationship with my boyfriend, with my friends and with my family. I’ve been hitting the play button, the fast forward button, the stop button (only because I fell asleep for a few hours at night) but I always neglected the pause button until now…I am sitting here, thinking…

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Death & Dying: The Importance of Talking About What We Don’t Want to Talk About

I am currently interning for a Hospice agency, and boy do I love it. When people hear the word “hospice” people tend to freak out, and shut down. Hardly anyone ever talks about the existence of hospice or seeks out education of it. Understandably enough, recent generations are scared of death and the thought of losing their loved one. But what I have learned in just the first few weeks of working there is the importance of knowing what your loved one’s last wishes are-even what your last wishes are. Being younger and healthy, we think we are invincible, that we are going to stay young forever..but we grow older everyday. In fact, the moment we are born we experience grief and loss. It is important that we have these conversations with our loved ones, with ourselves and our children (or future children in my case), to ensure through all…

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My Apology Letter to Myself: The Importance of Forgiving Myself & Loving the Better Me.

Throughout my life, there have been days, months, and years where I have done wrong to myself. I have lied to myself, cheated on myself, spoke badly on myself…and I have never once apologized for it all. As we go through these dark moments in our life, once we break through and overcome these moments we may begin to apologize to the ones we had hurt along the way, but do not ever stop to think to apologize to ourselves. Don’t get me wrong, it is extremely important to apologize to the ones we hurt and to forgive those who have hurt us-but it is essential to apologize to ourselves for the hurt, the pain, and the suffering we have brought on ourselves. I have been battling anxiety and depression all my life, and I am finally starting to feel full again. From my happy heart to my scarred, but…

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The Chronicles of a Committed Relationship.

My boyfriend and I will be together for four years in May this year. Four years. So insane and so amazing. I was just looking at this picture together when we were only 18 and so in love! I am still in love with this man, but it has developed and grew into a different level of love, like a level of love where I fart under the blankets and let it bomb him when he gets in bed with me. If that ain’t love, I don’t know what is. From wanting to be together and love one another every waking moment, to inappropriate grope sessions and letting your legs get hairier than big foot-long, I’m here to take you on a fun journey of:

The Chronicles of a Committed Relationship

1. You can just be yourself. 

Physically, emotionally, and mentally. When I first started dating Walter, I shaved my…

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I Accepted the Duty of Being a Bridesmaid. Now what?

I SAID YES!

……to one of my best friends (aka bride-to-be)! I AM SO EXCITED! Their love story is absolutely precious (what love story isn’t?) and I am proud to say that I was a part of where they are as a couple today! That will be featured in a later blog (I don’t want to spill all the precious details too early!) However, It is so exciting to be at this point in my life where all my beautiful friends are thinking about getting engaged, actually getting engaged, and asking me to be a part of their very special day!

So here we are, the gorgeous bride-to-be and us very lucky bridesmaids (I’m on the far right) 🙂

We all went out to dinner together and she gave us each a personalized box filled with goodies! She is usually not the craftiest out of the bunch (we still love…

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Positively Positive.

We all go through different events in life every day that put us in a bad mood or that we let put us in a bad mood.  We then make the decision to dwell on this event or situation, and we all know that misery loves company so we bring others into it as well…

Unfortunately, we are all guilty of this.

Working full-time, going to school full-time, trying to maintain a relationship with my family members, my boyfriend and my cat while running a household definitely had me run down, worn out and negative. All. The. Time. It got to the point where I felt so miserable and burnt out I would annoy myself.

Then I realized….

I can’t control the things that I cannot change. Sure, I have heard it before. A million times actually. By my mom, my best friends, my sister-in-law-but I didn’t ever listen until…

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Dear Absent Parent,

We all have stories where we know someone or have a parent ourselves who is absent from our lives. Meaning, the child may have suffered from emotional, physical, or mental abuse, the child may have suffered from abandonment, or the parent suffers from a drug and/or alcohol addictions-there are many, many more reasons for this matter. When I was 12 years old, my mother remarried a Cocaine addict. She explained to me later on that he had fell into the addiction after his father passed away, but that he had gone through a rehabilitation center and has not used since. They met online, and what attracted her to him was the fact that he apparently “made six figures and loved children.” They got married shortly after and she was in her own world with her new husband.

However, while she was pregnant with their second child, it became known to the…

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Recognize Social Work, Too.

As some of you may know, I am a Social Work Major at the University I attend. All my life, I have always loved helping people, listening to people’s worries, issues, concerns, etc. and doing the best I can to help them. The Social Work Program that I am in is one of the best decisions I have ever made. It has taught me so many things about the need for social justice in that EVERYONE deserves an opportunity to be successful. Not going to lie, I came into social work with a few biases and stereotypical ideologies that were way out of reach in my consciousness that I didn’t realize I had (who doesn’t, as unfortunate and wrong as it is). Over the past three years, this program has brought these few things to the surface and helped to realize “wow, I don’t agree with this ideology I…

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Lemonade.

Welcome to my new blog! I am a 22 year old workaholic who decided to make time to blog about my crazy,hilarious life and hoping you, the reader, get a kick out of it. I will be writing about life’s “lemons,” meaning life’s challenges that we have or may face each and everyday from that fresh mascara on your eye lids after you sneeze to the overwhelming amount of inequality occurring in this world. We will take all of these lemons and celebrate the overcoming of life’s challenges by making lemonade together (maybe add a splash of vodka, too).

Well, this is my first blog post, short and sweet…or should I say sour 😉

I hope you follow my blog and stand by me as we go on this journey through Life, Love and the Pursuit of Lemons!

xoxo,

Carissa

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